“Atelophobia: the fear of not doing something right or the fear of not being good enough. Quite simply put it’s a fear of imperfection.”
Ever since I was a kid I was surrounded with high expectations and compared with my older brother. He did everything right, and he was the perfect child, I was (still am) the clumsiest person on Earth and always ended up screwing things up. I had one simple goal in life, and that was to be perfect. I feel that as the years have gone by I’ve learned and I’ve grown. I know that you don’t have to be perfect and that you are beautiful just the way you are. But no matter what I live with this constant fear of never being good enough, or never being pretty enough, I find myself comparing me to everyone else and picking our my own flaws.
I also find it hard to believe in myself, it’s like I watch someone do something and I tell them that they are great at it and I genuinely feel happy for them but I then tell myself to look at how perfect that person is, I tell myself how I’ll never be that good at anything. And sometimes all I really want is someone to come up to me and tell me that I can do it if I try, unfortunately I’ve never really had someone there to hug me and tell me that I am good enough and that I do matter. But one thing that I do have is writing and the internet, I have music and I use all these things to cope with myself and my insecurities.
Hopefully one day I’ll find someone who will be able to see through me and encourage me but for now from one broken soul to another I beg you please help someone when they need it. If your friend is insecure or hurting they will most probably try to push you away, don’t leave them, they are pushing you away because they need you the most, so please compliment someone when they look good, hug someone when they look like they need it, don’t hold back, if the person isn’t crying doesn’t mean they aren’t hurting, it just means they’ve gotten really good at hiding it. -H
Hi guys,so it’s been a while since I’ve shared some of my personal fears/insecurities with you guys, so here it is, yup I fear imperfection, if you could in any way relate to this post then I hope you know that you are not alone and I’m just as crazy as you, and that you are beautiful even if you forget it sometimes. I hope you stay awesome and stay weird (cause normally is just “meh”) Loads of Love-H